Throughout the course of our lives we intentionally and subconsciously create goals for ourselves. This is a natural part of being human and Accomplishing Tasks. We set goals to work towards to help navigate our lives through the chaos of this world; guiding ourselves towards where we want to be. Sometimes these are big things, sometimes they are little, but each goal is a mental acknowledgement of something we do not have and a decision on obtaining it. When utilized effectively this navigational mechanism steers our lives in a positive direction.
As we know of course, life seldom goes as planned. Sometimes our needs become too immediate or too great to allow for a comfortable voyage. Sometimes when we look at where we are, especially compared to where we want to go, our goals suddenly seem more distant than usual. Sometimes it feels like we are floating around in circles, having to overcome the same obstacles again and again. Sometimes life seems a bit back and forth.
Patterns and recurrences are not merely hurdles in life. Rather they are indicators that the ways we are working towards our goal, and perhaps even the goal itself, needs to change. The issue at hand is not always immediate or clear; often times in fact it is quite hidden. Perhaps a deep-seated fear or an unrecognized destructive bias, for example.
When things do not go as planned we tend to consider the reasons why. Occasionally we will recognize self fault or find blame in others. Very often we cannot initially understand the reasons why. When our mental account of the external world has been examined by our psyche without answers we turn internal. Repetitive cycles in life are often times a catalyst for self dissection and realization.
Kabbalah suggests that this is akin to the phenomenon of correction vs. bestowal. To achieve gnosis through corrective experiences instead of divine delivery or bestowal. Essentially wisdom via accumulation of experiences and thorough utilization of this.
My darling friend Greg once said to me “I never go straight, I always go forward”. These eight words struck a chord with me. What we want, our goals, might be straight ahead but as we navigate toward them life throws us curves. No longer is the path straight ahead but instead around about and through, no longer our goals within sight.
But we are still going forward.
Forward in our journey, forward through time, forward in life through the coveted and the unexpected.